Saturday, May 24, 2008 ; 10:19 PM
this blog has been abandoned for such a long time. and i told myself that i will revive it when i have the inspiration to blog. and now its here, my testimony and thanksgiving to God.
the reason why i'm doing this through a blog is because i couldn't do it better in speech. i figured that by writing it down will i do justice to the grace that God had showered in my life. i have been penning down my journey of faith in my diary and here, i will relate to you what i have experienced.
i have been accepted into NUS Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences through discretionary admission. because my results did not make the cut, i got in through my cca achievements, other activities and through the submission of an essay, which granted me an interview with fass. this would mean that i'm competing for the 10 percent of the places in the faculty and to me, i thought it was rather pressurising to have my future educational experiences depending on my portfolio and the interview with the professors. and i find it especially hard because i'm not a very outspoken person and when i'm intimidated, i will just keep quiet, or have little to say, which doesn't put you in a good light during an interview. so i prayed long and hard for strength and peace from God as i face the interview. most importantly, for His will be done and i can be assured if His will for me is to be successful in what is to come.
and i want to thank God for the people who have helped me in one way or another.
for Xuen. whose words made me to go on ahead with the discretionary admission application when i initially didn't want to do it because it was too troublesome.
for Emily, who edited and proof-read my essay section in the discretionary admission application.
for Amelia, who helped clear my doubts on writing portfolio.
for Joanne, who gave me directions on how to get to the interview venue, her prayers and her constant advice.
for Xinling and her constant advice too.
for Claudia, who gave me a mock interview practice and her messages of encouragement and verses from the bible the night before my interview.
for William and Lydia, who wrote recommendation letters for me despite a really short notice amidst their other commitments. initially i expected just one, but i got two letters instead. =)
and lastly, for all those who have prayed for me. if you haven't, just being happy for me is more than enough. =)
before i sound like i'm delivering some thank you speech after receiving a star award, i would like to highlight that it was God who paved this road for me. He blessed me with these people who helped me reach up to this point. this is what i realized through this whole experience. God could have just put me into the course without the discretionary admission and the nerve-wrecking interview. but it was only through this whole process did i experience Christ and learning to truly cherish the grace that God had shown me.
let me talk about my interview for a bit. the two professors were curious about my involvement in church and they asked some questions about what my church is like and my past mission trips to cambodia. their subsequent questions were mainly concerns as to whether i'll be able to juggle schoolwork and other activities. initially i was worried that they may reject me because of my involvement in church, which may cause me have lesser time for studies. but i'm really glad that i honoured God with my ministries and in that interview room because He gave me what i desired. =)
and i am thankful that this door that God had opened for me is just what i have always wanted, which is a bonus. because sometimes, what you want may not be what God plans for you. by learning to trust in Him that He will give nothing but the best and committing your ways unto Him, will He prosper you. this may sound pretty layman and basic, like what we always listen to in sunday service. but it took me years to grasp this knowledge and to really practice it out. its not to say that i have total understanding of it, but i'm still learning as i go along. because i used to try and take a lot of things into my own hands. it was just recently did i experience that there is only so much that we can do. but God can achieve so much more, if you are willing to place it in His hands.
i told God that if it is His will, let me get into fass. and i will really try to get my priorities right this time and in return for His goodness, i will testify of His love and grace in my life. yup. so here it is. enjoy. =)
